One of the hardest things about dealing with multiple chronic illnesses is that I am often afraid that I am missing out on things in life. I think Facebook makes it a whole lot worse. I see people I know getting engaged, married, buying homes, starting families, advancing in their careers, getting advanced degrees, and sometimes I feel like I am behind…like my life means less….like I am somehow failing.
I know everyone has a different path, but there are times I wonder what the heck the point of my struggles are. The idea that time is passing me by so quickly is a little frightening. I only have one life…what if I am doing it wrong?
Luckily I usually tend to keep a very positive mindset…there are just times I feel a bit sad. And I let myself feel this way. It’s kind of like grieving for the life I thought I’d have. But I don’t let myself feel depressed for too long because I know how many incredible blessings I have. And I am truly grateful. But I am human too.